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madame
hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Sunday, February 12, 2006 8:41 PM
i went throught the messages you sent, i went through the memories. i'm confused with what you want to do. tell me what to change. tell me which area of my life you do not like. i just do not want to see you sad, suffer or force yourself to do the things that you do not like to do. i want to see you being happy. sigh. today you rejected me to meeting you. i got nothing to say. i didn't really force myself to go home. just quite sad and tired of asking you to meet me. hais. WHAT SHOULD I DO? WHAT CAN I DO?

i think i really siao liao. my ears got water dripping out. my nose and lips bleeding. now, my eyes are swollen and reddish. sigh. how i wish i can just be dead. i do not want to eat the medicine that the doctor prescribe on the friday i went for checkup. i rather get cancer, than to eat this stupid medicine. hais. whatever la. i don't care. now want to concentrate on my homework. too long didn't do homework le. hahas.

today i enjoyed myself thoroughly in the praise and worship. i could not stop imagining when that person leave me, and i just broke down on the spot. i knelt down, and look up to You. this image kept returning back into my mind. i could not stop thinking. and i cried too. i really do not want that person to leave. but do i truly love that person? i want to rely on Your strength. i want to prosper and glorify Your name.

think BIG! be BIG! grow BIG!